i am a teeter totterr

seriously, this is ridiculous.
im fine. im happy, im so very very very very goddamn happy.
and then i get a LITTLE down.
and then it spirals.
i miss cudddddddddddddling.
i miss caring about someone.
whatever.
hahahahah. its so hilarious, im like fine, and then something like a movie romance..or like.. watching a couple. will just be small enough but poignant enough for me to stop and think..oh..i dont have that. im not all the way complete.
i mean i am complete on my own.
but just like everyone else on the planet, i want someone to canoodle with.
and hey.
thats the only real way the dormant love will be expelled from my being and maybe reform into something else.
its disgusting.


i shop too much. :] haha.