oh please

sometimes i wonder how much we feel that the other side is ignorant of their actions.
for example, when someone says something to you and you think, well they probably didnt know it could be taken: this way. what if they really do and you just aren't giving them credit?


bah. i feel bad. im pushing like two people away right now. im just not the sort of person that is uber bothered by it. im sorry for hurting you. i know i am. i dont know how to stop it, its a defense mechanism, its who i am. and i just want it to be recorded, that i really am sorry for hurting you.
i am overwhelmed.
and helpless.
and confused.
and basically just over it.

its not fun, its actually a big deal.


and you dont know what im talking about at all do you?
balls.
lol