hello

today is two days before i get the keys to my new apartment.
and let me tell you! i am freaking out!
did you know i have nightmares/dreams about finding furniture.. and bills... lol its rather daunting the more i think about it.

but i really am super excited. i just... feel so pressured all of the time. my life is totally planned out for me. i go to class. for the next minimum two years...but i plan on going to graduate school.. so five years! .and i have all these crazy commitments.. and thats a good thing. im way being responsible. it just gets a little overwhelming. i dont miss my youth-youth where i was crazy and nonchalant.. i really don't. im happy to be where i am now. its just change.. and change is good.. its just new and shocking.. and wonderful. :)

blehhh. anyway we'll see how this business goes. im happy here. where i am. without my past. and with my future.